Saturday, December 27, 2003
woke up at 7. had breakfast. played gb till 12. had lunch. went to watch lotr at cine orchard. went to shop for chi new year clothes (with mom). went home. had dinner. played gb. got interrupted by mom.
hell, today isnt right. maybe its cuz of the fight i had with mom. maybe its cuz of my two freaking ulcers. its probably cuz i played too much comp. ah, wtf. im a screwed up kid, in a screwed up world, living a screwed up life. thank god i dont have screwed up friends, or id be living in a screwed up hell.
yknow, ive always hated christmas. thats cuz it signifies the end of the hols. lol, the only time i looked forward to schl was in pri 5 and 6. dont ask why. i juz liked schl those days. the post psle days were prolly the best. the best times ive ever had. total control over the schl. well, sorta. i remember me and everyone playing five stones. =D. im still the best guy in 6C at fivestones. dont yall think so? ahahah. as for sec schl, its totally screwed up. teachers dont give a phuck. "you're taking the exam, not me." on the other hand, pschl teachers are doing their best and giving us remedials and stuff, cuz they treat us like their children; a lot closer. and i hated those xtra lessons. i thought the teacher was being a moron. im so immature. sec schl life is phucked up. you do smth wrong and ur phucked. seriously, totally. call parents, yellow forms, pink forms. what phuckery that is. and i thought sec schl would be so much better than pschl. looks like mom was right about pschl being the best days. sigh...
o well, whats past is past. its time to move on to the screweder up part of my life. before i know it, id be sitting for o levels. then a levels. and then i wonder if ill make it to jc. no wait, you take a levels at jc. lol. and im starting to slack at such an incredible rate, it spooks me out. i juz cant seem to concentrate anymore. is this normal? or am i abnormal. i think its me. everyone at schl's getting better, smarter. and im struggling. esp chi. sigh. i need help. but theres no one! ahaha.
grant me a clear vision and light my path.
grant me courage to face my difficulty.
grant me hope and uplift my morale.
grant me strength so i can persevere.
someone, please help me. seriously.
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